I laid down in bed and closed my eyes, but with no intentions of sleep yet. I breathed a short a prayer - "God, what have I been living for?"
In an instant I knew the answer. The hard truth was - I had been living for myself. It was all about my life, my time, my talents, my schoolwork, my needs...
It hurt. And I asked God to teach me how to give freely.
Giving freely is not easy. It means time. It means energy. It means love. Sometimes it hurts. But if God is your focus, it will come. It will come along with the desire to please Him.
I feel almost as if I have been taking life, love, and faith for granted. And I've been thinking - if new people came to read my blog, would they be able to tell that I'm a Christian? Last Friday I was at a youth rally, and I asked God to take away any fakeness that was in my heart. I want to be real. Because this is real, and it's what I believe in.
So let's start over, okay? My name is Abbie. And I am a Christian. And I love Jesus and want to serve Him with my whole heart.
Abbie /// XOXOX
p.s. waking up early + tea + oatmeal + snow day + music = pretty awesome day so far.